Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Want to know when you'll die?

Would you rather know or not know the exact day you'll die? Its a tough question to answer. Many think that if they know exactly when they'll die, then they could plan and do everything before that day arrives. I'm not sure if knowing when I'm going to die would make any difference to the way I live my life. I could plan for the inevitable; put everything in order so to speak. Just imagine if say you found out you were terminally ill and the doctor gave you 3 months to live. Isn;t that like knowing exactly how long you have left on this earth? What would you do then ? Would life be any different for you? What would you do which you would not have otherwise done? Go on that trip of a lifetime? Spend more time with family and friends ? Say "I love you" a lot more? So if God had given us that knowledge of our death or rather when that will be , how much of a better person would that have made all of us? I just got the news that my mother's cancer had spread from her breast to her bones and possibly her liver. She's 90 and treatment options are few given her age and health history ( a stroke and 2 heart attacks in the last 2 years). The doctors give her 6-12 months. We decided she should not know about this new"development". She knows about her breast cancer. So from now they will give her a monthly injection which is no more than a placebo. She is not in any pain at the moment and lives life one day at a time. Ignorance is bliss. So in her case , not knowing the time she has left will probably mean she will be able to live out that timeline to the maximum. I am almost certain that if we told her that the cancer had spread and that the doctors give her 6-12 months , she will "deteriorate' even quicker than that.


So if I were given the choice to know or not ; I'd choose not to know. I would like the Big Man up there to surprise me.......its a whole lot easier.